'I F***** Up, I Want To Die' - Spanish Driver's Words Moments After Train Derailed Killing At Least 80 People

The black box of the Spanish train which crashed killing at least 80 people recorded its driver begging controllers what to do in the moments after it hurtled off the tracks, yelling: 'I f***** up. I want to die.'

Francisco Jose Garzon was behind the controls when the Madrid to Ferrol high-speed rail link hurtled into a wall at 120mph near the city of Santiago de Compostela on Wednesday night.

The on-board recording device reveals Garzon's desperate pleas to the Alvia Trains control room as the magnitude of the smash dawned on him, Spanish newspaper El Mundo reported.
'I've derailed,' he told the rail company's nerve centre as the dust settled around the wreckage. 'What do I do? What am I supposed to do? I f***** up. I want to die.'

Minutes after the crash - which also injured 141 people including one Briton - he was photographed being helped from his train's mangled remains by a medic, blood oozing from a wound on his head onto his blue uniform.

The transcripts of the recording was released hours after it was reported Garzon previously posted a picture on Facebook of a train speedometer at 125mph last year.
According to reports he also boasted about how fast he was going. The webpage has disappeared after images appeared on Spanish TV and newspaper websites.

Alongside the photo, which was published in March last year, he wrote: 'What joy it would be to get level with the police and then go past them making their speed guns go off. Ha ha!.'

Newspaper reports cited witnesses as saying driver Francisco Jose Garzon,who helped rescue victims, had shouted: 'I've derailed! What do I do?' into a phone.

The accident is the worst train accident in 30 years and television footage showed one wagon pointing upwards into the air with one of its ends twisted and disfigured. 

Another carriage that had been severed in two could be seen lying on a road near the track.
State-owned train operator Renfe said in a statement that 218 passengers and an unspecified number of staff were on board at the time of the accident.